Who Am I?

Well, here I am!  I’m not ashamed to hide my face anymore.  The mask is off!

Porn may seem to be common and not that big of a deal to many.  But, to me, it was an addiction that was  absolutely the most devastating and hurtful obstacle in my life that I could ever imagine facing.  I can’t even begin to express how ten years of addiction affected me.  But, for anyone who has been in an addiction or close to an addict, you know exactly what I mean.  The struggle was intensified for me because I was in ministry the entire time and I had to keep my “secret”.  I felt nobody would understand and; jwhite.jpgtherefore, I had no one to talk to.  I also felt that I didn’t need others because Jesus should be strong enough all by Himself.  After so many years of being locked in my prison, I began to question if I would ever be freed from it.  It wasn’t until I finally accepted that I needed others as well (James 5:16) that my process of true recovery began to take shape.  For the first time in ten years, I am able to show my face and tell my story.  That is what this blog is all about!!

Currently, I am an X-ray student in Santa Barbara, CA.  In my free time, I enjoy surfing, hanging out on the beach, writing, hiking, and photography.  I am a Conceptual Art Photographer and teach classes on photography.  You can view my photography website at www.TheCreatorsImagePhoto.com.  I’m proud to have won the 2013 “Ventura RawArtist’s Photographer of the Year award”…  (photo below)

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Justin

If you’re interested in all the details of who I am, you can read the following posts where I describe everything from childhood onward…

1)  My Childhood

2)  My Spiritual Awakening

3)  From New Age to Christian…  What Happened!?

4)  A Christian Porn Addict

9 Responses to Who Am I?

  1. lostinporn says:

    You know, it’s funny. I was just thinking about doing just that. In fact, I’m going to add a picture and full disclosure of myself. The reason I was being anonymous was because I was ashamed and afraid I might be recognized or something (or judged). I’m getting over that now. Should be up shortly!

  2. Justin, I am overwhelmed. I feel like I am actually about to surrender to tears because I am so moved by your bravery.
    In showing your face and revealing your name you are making a sacrifice and that is that you are raising your hand and being willing to be the face of an addiction/recover/struggle….but most of all, being a frail human being… as we all are.
    I truly believe that it is not the ‘perfect’ men or women who get up on glitzy stages in front of camera’s giving out 5 steps to win ‘Gods favour’ that make the biggest impact on others, but rather the frail, stumbling, hopeful, weary and weak men and women who are willing to take off their mask confess ‘yes, I fail, and am weak and I am full of sin but I also love Jesus with all my heart and He is changing me and I will continue to beg Him to take my life when I don’t have the strength to give it away to Him…”

    God bless you for being real, I don’t think you will realise the impact of the ministry in your struggle until you come face to face with He who led you through it.

    • lostinporn says:

      Thank you so much. That song put me over the “about to surrender to tears” mark. If I had a graduation ceremony from my porn addiction, I think that would have to be my song. It was so celebratory to listen and reflect on what God is doing. I used to think I was an expert. I was that guy that got up on the glitzy stage and said all the right words. Now, I feel like I’m just floundering around and simply sharing–and it feels so right. Thank you, friend!

  3. Justin says:

    Glory to God! Your testimony will help guide others to freedom in Christ.

  4. Sydney says:

    Hi Justin! Amen to everything you wrote. What a blessing it is to be able to step out of the shame by the power of the Spirit! I’m excited for you as you embark on this new portion of life! God’s plan for us, for our stories, is greater than we can even imagine.

  5. robin claire says:

    Hi Justin,
    I think you might like this post. You are not alone.

    http://robinclaire.wordpress.com/2012/12/22/my-father/

    robin claire

  6. BLESS you! I have shivers reading your blog. It hits home. Amazing!
    To God be the Glory, He picks us up, dusts us off and turns what the enemy intended for bad, into glory! Amen!!

  7. cathartique says:

    Good for you, Justin! Your courage is inspiring!!! I look forward to following your recovery from the other side of the planet (ie Australia)! Best wishes my friend 🙂

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